I’ll still stay here,

These few days I have been productive!:D

Yesterday, I wrote 2 poems. And now I’m thinking of new songs to write. Got new plot to base it on le. (:

Others may think I waste time, but eh. It helps to relieve stress and help me not think so much, so it is beneficial. I wna fill up my sketchpad also! As soon as possible. :D

So yesterday I went to church, and Samuel BFF introduced a new song. :D

I really need to get back on track again. Like I have read this quote ‘ Nobody can hold on to two different things at once. ‘ I’ve made up my mind to let go of certain things, and God is more important. These few days will be reflection days. Okay lah, actually the past few weeks have all been spent doing self-evaluations, reflections, and some really deep thinking.

P.S. Thanks for helping me see things much more clearly. I guess even if some things dont happen, I’m still gna treasure what we have now. I really feel much better alr. And I promise you, I will get over this no matter what it takes. Thank you. (:

 

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Draw a picture of you,

Today I bought a new sketchpad. No its not for drawing purposes, my art sucks. I’m going to compile all my poems/songs/C.O.Ws from the past 2 years. And maybe one day when I am brave enough, I will show you, and you.

Today was pretty fine, thank you Constance for listening on the way home. Haven’t took the bus with you for ages, I miss it. ):

Great to have ppl who care. (:

I feel like doing something, but at the same time I am scared. Sigh.

Under the moonlight.

It is heartwarming when someone cares about you and you know you can always count on them.

Eunice laogongggzxzxz, thanks so much. When I read your post, I really cannot help but feel touched. Even if its only one small part, I see your care and concern. I really hope I’ll be able to keep the relationship too.

Love you so much ok. Things will turn out fine. AND AREN’T YOU HONOURED? This post is dedicated to you. Thank you once again so so so much.

You made my day/evening/night. :D Muacks (L)

They light up the sky.

I get a thousand hugs

From ten thousand lightning bugs

As they try to teach me how to dance

I’d like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly.

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Damn cute song lah! :D

Yeaaaa I want ten thousand hugs. Hehehe so these few days have been good I guess. CCA chalet yesterday was the bomb, finally got to see the rest which I havent seen in ages! And Charlene was being her usual hyper self. Waited for people to give me food. And I think I ate quite a bit. Awesome time even though there were these weird ahbengs in the chalet beside us trying to burn down everything they saw.

Oh oh oh! Its a day late and I’ve wished you already, but here’s one more.

Happy Birthday Zhao Loong!:D You’re 17 already ah, cannot be childish anymore! Thank God for an awesome best friend like you. And I think by the time you read this it’ll be how many days later alr. Hahaha.

K xoxo ppl :D

Face it.

When someone doesn’t like you,

No matter how much you try to change yourself,

No matter how much you think of the person,

No matter how much  you try to psycho yourself that somehow, things might change for the better,

No matter how much you cry over it,

No matter how many people you tell,

No matter how others try to offer their help to you,

No matter what you do,

Things are going to stay the same. They won’t change, the person won’t like you back.Even if you wish upon a thousand stars.

Desiree, face it already.

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Just fade away,

Hi!:D

Today was funnn even though I think I wasted my time in school. There was maths and econs lecture today, and lessons ended at an awesome time of 1030. Stoned at Kovan until CCA started. And CCA lasted a grand total of 30+ minutes. Wasted my time k! ):

Met Shamini after that, had h2ht at Macs, then bused to her house to change her shoes( China shoes suck right! ) Took bus to Toa.P Interchange, we seriously travelled around alot lah! First to Kovan, then AMK, then Toa.P, then Orchard. Met Rebekah and the rest at Orchard, went to eatttt! Ohoh I seriously ate so much today okay! Ask Shamini if you dont believe me!:D

Had awesome time of bonding with the girls + Joel, Jonathan and Darien. Walked around Orchard, bought ice cream, got lost, and stoned at some staircase. We should have more of this man. Awesome timeeeee (:

Sometimes I wish I could be less talkative. More self-aware of what I am doing. And I hope this wont turn out to be a mistake, the very same one which happened two years ago. MY.

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Wait for you.

Someone said this. ‘ Life goes on, no matter whether you are happy or sad. Why choose to live your life out in sadness? Rather, try to see the happy things in life, appreciate everything that happens. In every cloud there is a silver lining.’

Have I been wasting the past few weeks of my life being sad and emotional over things that don’t really matter? I thought sharing my problems with others would make me feel better. It does, but I still find myself worrying. And when I reflect back, I realize I don’t really know what I’m worrying about. They say, ‘ the more you expect, the harder you fall’. So true man. I’m making my way up the ladder of expectations, and as I go higher, the risk of falling is greater. And what happens when I really do lose grip and fall? The end will be further, the impact greater. And then, what would I do?

Thanks everyone who has heard me out the past week. Really appreciate it alot. Thanks for helping me sort my thoughts out as well. I have a clearer picture, and soon, I will decide what to do. <3 you all !

xoxo you.

I can still recall,

First day of supplementary lessons. And I already feel so tired.Wonder how I’m gna cope with J2 next year. ):

So many people around me,

but things will never be the same again.

Feel so alone.

Haiz. ):

No matter if its wrong or right,

Hi! :D

Woke up super early for Mission X final thing today. 7.30 OK! My rule is that I NEVER EVER wake up before 9am on weekends! ):Think I totally wasted my time at school also. Half dead the whole time and who can stand econs early in the morning?!

After it ended, waited for PingSee to finish doing her self-training. ZL, Niq and I started kicking the soccer ball arnd. Kind of improving yay yay :D And the weather wasn’t too bad, think it was gna rain thats why so windy.

And my phone sucks okay it totally died on me halfway when we went to visit KuangJie at the pool place. So I was stuck without a phone for the whole day. Thanks to PS, Niq and Joanna for letting me use their phones hehehehe :D

Met Joanna at Tamp Interchange, ate BK and walked around. Didnt wna go home so trained to Bishan. Walk-walked somemore then ate second round at Ajisen. And I felt so bad cos I didnt have enough money and Joanna had to pay for me first! Sorry Joanna, I will pay you back when I next see you! And I really enjoyed today, loveyou so much <3

OHOHOH, on the way back, me and Joanna decided to stop at Eunos MRT and that was the biggest mistake of my life man. The place was infested with COCKROACHES WTH! Dont believe can ask Joanna. When we were waiting at the busstop, this woman tried to kick the cockraoch off the seat and guess where it started running? DIRECTLY AT ME. Wah I got a huge shock and started running to Joanna ok. Totally embarassed myself in front of everyone else at the busstop. K, mental note to NEVER EVER go there again. Yucks man. ):

Kk, tomorrow is chiong-corrections-day. Because I havent started at all, damn it. Today was one of the few awesome days I had in the past few weeks, thank God (:

Want to hug you close,

It hurts so much. It really does. And it sucks because I cannot tell anyone. What have you got yourself into now> ):

Confused.

Cola, I miss you so much now. Got reminded of how everytime I was sad in the past, all I had to do was hug you and I would feel much better. But now, you’re no longer here, I have no one to hug anymore ): The feeling sucks, wish you were here.

Anyway, the human brain is so complex right? Still can’t understand why one moment I can be so happy while the next I am damn depressed. Think I am going mad. Actually no , I am alr convinced that I’m abit mad now. I realised that I am super insecure. The type of person that needs lots of assurance + encouragement. However, these only lasts for a while. That means I need people to constantly encourage me.

Wah feel so troublesome these few days. Dont ask me about the locked posts. They’re for me to read through in the future and see what a stupid person I was. For now, I’ll show them to no one. You probably won’t wna read them anyway. Cos they’re all about the same thing. And I dont want people to pity me. That’s the biggest factor I guess.

I so dont want to wake up early tmr. Anyway, bet no one reads this blog. So byeeee alr (:

xoxo you.

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